星期三, 3月 28, 2007
ichigo&&gazette
recently i started doing pixel art..i juz realised it was interesting.
i'll go copy up some codes for my new blog skin...but i wonder when will that be.
i juz realised..last time when we were in 1st yr of high school, i nvr realised cam will look so like a guy.
now i look at him n ady, they look like real guys. last time they were short n now they r so much taller than me.
last time i used to jokes around wif them n i get used to them being my bro bros.
but now cam started liking a gal n if she likes him, there will b a space between us.
it feels weird.
i dun wanna see them wif their gal friends. i'll feel like i don't belong. i'll feel like we nvr ysed to b friends
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8:49 下午
星期三, 3月 21, 2007
PMS
i think i got pms bcuz nowadays i'm so freakin moody, since last month i got le...last time dun hav de...aiks
headache n gastric n muscles pain T.T so sad...aiks...
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5:58 下午
星期四, 2月 22, 2007
carefree
hooray i dumped chick today...cheers 4 me!! but i think it's quite harsh u noe..but i hope he wasn't angry..sumtimes i think i shudn't b so harsh..but later on i'll think he deserves it..
poor guy, he has many problems oso..i admit. i can't do anything but pity him..it's not my right to help him bcuz i'm his ex.
we r now frens. i'm glad i get to see him again. in my heart, he remains as my 1st love..he was da one hu stole my heart. it's a fact tho i used to deny it.
i noe he's upset n angry..but he deserves it bcuz he hurted me b4 but i still feel sorry~~!! haihx...i'm a 2 headed snake..dunno shud pity him or hate him..so confusing..but i noe i hav a bright future..he was a test 4 me...i've got over him..i gotta thank him 4 all this as well...or else i'll be cheated n stuff..perhaps i really shuda do sumthing more for him (like help fix his fucked up life)
aww poor guy..kesian him
btw, chick's real name is kenneth^^
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6:06 下午
星期六, 1月 27, 2007
weird dream & desire
i had a dream last night. i was in another family. i had a lil bro. he had everything but not me or sumthing like that. i told chick about that. he told me to kill him. so i tried to.i used glass , wateva i found n i was half chopping his eyes, my 'mom' came. i was pretending that i cared about him. so i pretended saying "omg!! wat happened?? how come liek this"then i was worrying wateva to do bcuz my lil 'bro' will tell every1 about it. so i was like....wait till he wake up n i'll catch him. the next scene was chick, n his friends (a gal n a guy) n me. we were in a car n chick was driving.we went to this place to discuss how to do bcuz my 'family' was having a ceremony to celebrate my 'lil bro's recovery. i was so scared but chick kept telling me not to worry n he'll kill my 'lil bro'. the other two oso said that. i went to da ceremony. every1 was wondering hu did that to him. luckily my 'lil bro' is still sickly type so he couldn't tell anything yet bcuz i warned him if he told any1 i would finish him off. sum ppl suspected me. i was like 'shit'i went over to chick n asked him wat to do. he didn't say anything but told me to dun worry. i was really scared. i thought that was the end of me. then i began to kinda need cuddle. so i hugged him round his neck. i was thinking "feel me around u, hug me back. y rn't u comforting me?" i was hugging him tightly. i continued thinking "perhaps u don't like me, u nvr cuddle me anyway" he was about to but then his warmth faded.he mumbled "i can't stand it anymore" n he died/collapse. i juz realised he was a robot. he looked like a skeleton. then i thought "no wonder he didn't hug me. he's a robot, how can he like me?" i left the place.even tho he was a robot, i liked him 4 hu he is. one of his friend asked me bout him but then i started running. i was crying. i thought "of course, he's dead. there's a reason y i'm crying" i was sobbing when i found myself awake.it's the 2nd time i've dreamt of him leaving me. i went back sleeping n dreaming of him again. but i kinda 4get what happen.
the thing is i imght noe y i dream of this.
its bcuz i longed for his warmth n cuddle.
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8:01 下午
星期四, 1月 18, 2007
wtf
yesterday got ppl pretending to be me n chick, then he go pm riz n pei oso..so disturbing, i'm trying to find out hu did this
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2:11 下午
星期二, 1月 09, 2007
ngek
aiks..i 4got wat day edi but juz on da day ching sin ask me to his gf, he asked to marry him worhx....... then i tot he wasn't serious. then da 1st day i got into ran again, i stumbled onto sum1 called XLucyLiuX wif da nick phoenix82. so then i tot it was ching sin larhx...so i called him. but that gal say phoenix82 is her dear. then i oso cough larhx cuz mina told me ching sin is v playboy de. so i told her lorhx. later on ching sin sms-ed me. then i told him hu i met. then da next day he was like 'i dunno hu lai de, ur da only 1 i love'
then i was laughing cuz dat gal tot ching sin loved her n etc cuz she really likes him. then at night that time, ching sin gimme his id add. i was literally laughing my head off thinking "that stupid lucy, if oni she noe wat me n ching sin's doing".
later me, riz kor kor & ching sin lvl together in mp small square. then ching sin was like "riz, wan try anot, u call me dear 4 1 day" then i say "gay mehx". riz was like "..." then ching sin said "i can b bi for u". so then i was like "t.t dear dun wan me d...he wan b gay t.t" then he was like "where got? i wan u larhx"
then riz was like "ya lor, better take care of my mei. if u cheat her i'll .... u". then so funny u noe...ching sin was like "dun ... me lar, i scared 1 ar" then i was like "ahahahahaha" non stop laughing so badly. then riz was like ">< that's not wat i mean lar..im not gay" then ching sin was like "wat r u thinking? u urself dirty minded oni, dun think dirty lar"then riz was like "got some ppl say i dirty minded oso" lol i dunno y now not funny edi...but it was sooooo funnnny
then yesterday i met surya. she told me ching sin seemed to like me very much. she said he told her there's gal putting his name in her nick, he was sad bcuz i tot he got another dear where as he oni love me. so i was like eeek was he serious when he asked me to marry him or sumthing?
but i was thinking, hey he's not a bad person. he's smart n stuff, unlike all my other bfs. so yeah i'll think about it. but i really dunno wat to do bout my other 2 bfs. cuz ching sin n my another 1 really love me but my 1st bf that i'm still having n liked doesn't like me. i think sumtime last yr he used to like me too.
at least i felt that way bcuz during a period of time, he pampered me wif lots of love. tat was the happiest time i've ever had. but then i realised his intention was trying to get me into bed. he's screwed other gals too, so i tried to forget him. then i got my 2nd bf. this guy really love me too.
but the funny thing is that ones i love don't love me whereas those i don't love me. my theory is couples that love each other hardly happens. it never hapened to me. maybe sumday i'll find the mutual love. i dun like any1 right now but i feel bad bcuz they alll like me but i was playing 3 timers.
oh yesterday there was a guy called setansmile. he went screaming my name when i passed by. so i went back there asking wat. he said XRauLX loves me. so i was like "ok...?" i don't even noe hu da hell is raul. then "i asked him where's raul". then setansmile was like "i'll called u when raul's around, love u"
tat's sooo freakin weird. i so hoped da one i love would love me but he doesn't. where as other guyz kept liking me when i dont have a single feeling about them. i feel so weird. is there really such thing such as mutual love?
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3:18 下午
星期六, 12月 16, 2006
muahahaha
today got another new bf...hahaha but haven't find my mr. right yet....so sad T.T
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3:24 下午