星期六, 1月 27, 2007
weird dream & desire
i had a dream last night. i was in another family. i had a lil bro. he had everything but not me or sumthing like that. i told chick about that. he told me to kill him. so i tried to.i used glass , wateva i found n i was half chopping his eyes, my 'mom' came. i was pretending that i cared about him. so i pretended saying "omg!! wat happened?? how come liek this"then i was worrying wateva to do bcuz my lil 'bro' will tell every1 about it. so i was like....wait till he wake up n i'll catch him. the next scene was chick, n his friends (a gal n a guy) n me. we were in a car n chick was driving.we went to this place to discuss how to do bcuz my 'family' was having a ceremony to celebrate my 'lil bro's recovery. i was so scared but chick kept telling me not to worry n he'll kill my 'lil bro'. the other two oso said that. i went to da ceremony. every1 was wondering hu did that to him. luckily my 'lil bro' is still sickly type so he couldn't tell anything yet bcuz i warned him if he told any1 i would finish him off. sum ppl suspected me. i was like 'shit'i went over to chick n asked him wat to do. he didn't say anything but told me to dun worry. i was really scared. i thought that was the end of me. then i began to kinda need cuddle. so i hugged him round his neck. i was thinking "feel me around u, hug me back. y rn't u comforting me?" i was hugging him tightly. i continued thinking "perhaps u don't like me, u nvr cuddle me anyway" he was about to but then his warmth faded.he mumbled "i can't stand it anymore" n he died/collapse. i juz realised he was a robot. he looked like a skeleton. then i thought "no wonder he didn't hug me. he's a robot, how can he like me?" i left the place.even tho he was a robot, i liked him 4 hu he is. one of his friend asked me bout him but then i started running. i was crying. i thought "of course, he's dead. there's a reason y i'm crying" i was sobbing when i found myself awake.it's the 2nd time i've dreamt of him leaving me. i went back sleeping n dreaming of him again. but i kinda 4get what happen.
the thing is i imght noe y i dream of this.
its bcuz i longed for his warmth n cuddle.
th0ught 0f y0u...
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